So, I never posted on this blog that our new baby is a GIRL. We found out on May 12. Emily and Brandon were pretty excited to hear the news. They'd both been praying that it would be a girl--especially Brandon, who said there were already too many boys and that Emily needed a sister. :)
Since we found out it was a girl, we've begun the task of searching for a name. I got a bigger baby name book this time--
The Complete Book of Baby Names. It claims to have the "100,001 best baby names." Well, it seems to me that a bigger book of baby names just has that many more RIDICULOUS names for a child! I think choosing another girl name is a harder task than I'd assumed! If you have any good name ideas, feel free to comment.
For a while after I got pregnant, I felt pretty nervous to have another baby. I thought, if only I had boundless energy and never needed any sleep, I'd do fine! I wouldn't be cranky, I'd meet all my kids' needs... but alas, I'm human. It comforted me a bit to read in my 2008 journal that I was scared before I had Jacob. I didn't know how I'd handle four kids. (And now look at what a pro I've become! Eh, heh...) I do remember being really tired sometimes when Jacob was still really little.
But back to the more recent past. My nervousness mounted and I really wanted relief. I knew if I talked to Paul about my fears that I would be strengthened. So, the other night I told him all about how worried I was that I would be irritable with the kids and be generally unhappy for a while, and I didn't know how I'd get them all ready for the bus stop in the morning, etc. And he did strengthen me. In fact, from then on, I've felt really different about it all. Now I feel I can just wait and see how it'll be without stressing over it beforehand; I feel even more grateful for this amazing gift of another child that God is giving to us; I trust that God is the best helper and that if I ask, He will help me do this! I know that things will be okay. And who knows how many more babies, if any, we'll be blessed with after this. So after she's born, I want to try to relax and soak in the joy of having a newborn. And another GIRL! (I'm so glad I saved a few of Emily's baby clothes! It'll be so fun to use them again!)